I don't mean to butt in, or get involved.. But..
(This is not an attack, I am speaking calmly. I respect everyone unless they attack me first.)
Perfection is right.
People will think you're trying for attention if you post it in inappropriate places.
Many people would love to help and talk to you, however, this is not the right place for posting sensitive stuff.
I'm sure your boyfriend would like to talk about things with you, no?
If you ever want to just talk to a professional or even read about problems you may be experiencing Childline, Teenline, and Kids Helpline are good places to start.
I'm sorry you had bad experiences with people.
Adieu~
-Moonwolf20